MISS.AGE❤️

Can I be HAPPY again? Going through this - “my” unplanned journey as a widow, was the most hardest experiences in my life. I had other hardships in my journey as a girl, teen, young woman, but nothing compared to losing someone you truly love so much.  During my early days into widowhood, I’ve never imagine, I would be so happy, so free and so much at peace. From this day I am amazed. I give all the praises to my Heavenly Father for giving me his strength and his grace to pull through.  The answer to my question - Yes I can be happy again. God just wants us to be happy.  Is happiness really the greatest good in the world? Statements like “Happy wife, happy life” and “The ultimate goal of life is the pursuit of happiness” have been staples in our society for as long as I can remember. But is that what God’s main priority for our lives is—to just be happy?  Now, don’t get me wrong. I’m not anti-happy. I’m a big fan of healthy happiness. What I’m ...

“Single are you ready to mingle” Being a widow has been the most hardest journey I’ve ever in encounter in my life. It has been also a blessing that Our Heavenly Father is able to heal me and to give me the strength to continue this journey without my wonderful, increditable, loving, handsome husband. God is Good!!!!  But I wanted to talk about this topic “DATING”. There are a lot of you writing to me about this topic.  It’s been 2 years and 3 months since  my husband Age has passed away. I have no urgency or the desire to date anyone because I enjoy being fully whole with God. Spending time with my Heavenly Father and my loved ones is what I need for this season. But if it’s the Lords will for me to have another husband. ( hmmmm man that sounds weird??). Well that’s God’s instructions. But at this moment in my life,  I’m happy trying to fix me and fix my eyes onto God.  People ask me all the time, “When will I be ready to date?” My answer a...

Psalms 37:4.  This scripture helped me during my pain of losing Age. I hope that it will bring you comfort, peace and hope. Even though I didn’t understand why the Lord allowed Adrian to pass away.  I still believe that God will help me through this. I believed that Our Heavenly  Father was going to put back the million shattered pieces of my heart together again.   Through his word I understood my unplanned future was going to be okay. I served a Lord who loves us unconditionally.   It’s hard I’m not going to tell you that it’s easy.  But my faith in the Lord kept me. I thank God for his grace and mercy in my life.   My encouragement for - Your unplanned future is in the Lords hands and he will bless you with all your hearts desires.  Be Strong and Courageous. Much love and blessings to you all MISS.AGE❤️

But how do we keep faith in the middle of a storm? It’s easy to say that our faith won’t falter when life is going smoothly, but it’s harder to say so when you’re in the midst of a storm. Sometimes all you can do is stand tall and push straight through.  The best thing to do to overcome a difficult time is to keep on pushing through. There is a difference between standing still and staying stagnant. Choosing to stand firm against your opposition is still a decision. Staying the course is a choice. Standing is a move! You can always give up. You can always quit. You can always turn your back on what you’re doing. Standing firm in your faith is often the most difficult decision that there is. It is also often the best decision there is. There was an old phrase used among sailors they would call out “hold fast”. This phrase would be shouted over the sound of thunder or a storm ahead.  When this phrase was used, it meant to stay at your position. To ...

People often focus too much on where they’ve been. Where they are from, the manner in which they grew up. The poor choices they’ve made, and the setbacks that they’ve experienced. But life isn’t about where you’ve been, it’s about where you’re going. The person I  was  isn’t the person I  am , nor is it the person that I  hope  to become. You see, God wants your attention to be focused on the present. He wants you to look straight ahead, because what He has for you is not behind you, but in front of you.  Reminding yourself of your past mistakes does nothing for today. It doesn’t help you. People get so stuck looking back at the storms they’ve weathered that they don’t notice where their ship is headed. They look at their flaws and faults when they should be looking forward at the greatness that God has planned for them. They’re too focused on what the enemy is up to, and not focused on what God is doing in their lives right now! Looking back i...

Fear.  Are you scared?  Scared being on your own?  Scared of your future?  Are you scared of raising your kids on your own?  Are you scared you can’t keep up with your finances? The list goes on. My answer is yes I was scared.  In my experience I was scared of the unknown. I was scared of many things like; 1. Reality of being a widow. 2. My plans are all stuffed up - I was scared of my future. 3. Continue to live without my soul mate.  4. Not having a family - I’m never going to have kids.  5. My living arrangements.  6. Finances. The list goes on.  Fear is very common when it comes to grieving or if you are suffering from a loss.  We cannot hide or run away from our grieving process, eventually you will need to face it and go through it.  When I tried to run away from reality of losing Age it only made my health and my mental state worse.  When I decided to face reality by ...

Time is so precious. Life is unpredictable. Time with your love ones cannot be taken for granted. Take advantage of the time you have with your spouses, parents, children, family and friends.  Quick to forgive and tell your love ones that you love them. Tomorrow is never a guarantee.  MISS.AGE❤️

You Matter More It has been a long road, the waiting for things to change. It is so hard to keep your heart soft. It feels so much easier to close it off. To stop hoping. To stop trying to get yourself to believe that things will change—that your loss won’t bring pain, that you won’t feel stuck in depression, trapped in circumstances you didn’t anticipate being yours to live.  This was not the plan, you tell Me. It was not the plan to feel isolated - not only from other people but from your own heart. For you have put it away, this heart of yours. It has felt too much—too needy, too heavy. What it needs, what it cries out for, you don’t even want to know. That was me..... I was afraid of my new life, a life I didn’t plan. So did you push it down? Did you kept it quiet or isolated? Did you ignore it the best you can? And are you are getting good at it too?. It aches, I tried to look at the bright side to think about the positive things in my life. When it feels hea...

My Ring. You’ll probably thinking when would be the best time to take off my ring? The answer is there is no timeframe when to take off your ring.  For me it took me almost two years after my husband death, for me to have the courage to take my ring off.  Looking at my ring was a reminder of our love. I took my ring off because it helped me with my healing process. Looking at my ring was constant reminder of our love but my husband was no longer here which broke my heart.  In my experiences wearing my ring - made me live in denial that my husband was alive or how I thought he will come back to me. At one point I was thinking that Age (my husband) was on a long vacation. Wearing my ring was a security blanket to avoid facing my reality. Maybe that might not be the case for other widows. But for me it did. I felt the time was right for me to accept that my Age (Husband) is in Heaven and Age is never coming back. I needed to let go and kee...