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How’s life? Has life been hard? Do you feel like giving up?
I hope this encourages you to keep going!!
REAL TALK: It’s been 2 years and 1 month from today that my husband went to Heaven. It’s been a 2 years and 1 month I have been a widow and my life changed completely.
It has changed me and everything in my life. Going through the process of losing a husband changed me mentally, physically and emotionally.
Since Adrian passed I have moved away from what we built together, new place to live, moving different states, changing careers, moving to a different country, gaining weight, losing weight, getting money, losing money, losing friends, saying goodbye to family, in-laws and the list goes on.
It was like I had to learn to eat, walk and breath again. A future ahead of me that I was force into that I didn’t want. During this process I had a lot of thoughts running through my head like, I didn’t signed up for this kinder life??? What the hell am I going to do? I can’t do this? I don’t want this life? God take me now? I don’t want to live anymore? I’m broken?I can’t get up anymore!!!
But....... You have a choice! You choose the road to want to take y’all LIFE or DEATH, DEPRESSION or HAPPINESS. I decided I’m going with LIFE AND HAPPINESS. It wasn’t easy walking the widow shoes. I’m not a strong person, God is the one who gave me the strength. I’m grateful to my Heavenly Father who has kept me from self harm, depression and anxiety. I thank God for continually giving me his strength to walk through this tribulation.
A lot of times we’re trying to pray away all the trouble, pray away the challenges, pray away the bad breaks. But here’s a key, you’re not anointed from trouble, you are anointed for trouble. The scripture says God is a present help in trouble. God is not going to stop every difficulty, every bad break but He will give you the strength, the power, the grace to go through. Remember if God brought you to it, He will bring you through it.
Much love and God Bless y’all MISSAGE❤️

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