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My Provider

My Provider.

When Age was alive, my life was so easy. I didn’t realised the amount of responsibilities my husband had over me and to his family. 

Age took care of all our finances, he knew what was coming in and what was going out. 
Age the man that he is, took control of everything. All Age wanted in return was my support in every decision he makes, respect, trust and to love him no matter what. 

When I think back of what he did for me, I know that I was the luckiest woman alive. 
It was certainly a blissful and stressless marriage  life even though Age took care of his family too. 
In my marriage life I never went without. I’ve always had money in my account to spend everyday and also savings on the side. My Age made sure that I was comfortable and happy at times. 

Age would go the extra mile, to make sure my clothes weren’t too old or my shoes aren’t worn out. I’m laughing about it now just thinking back of what Age did for me. The last time we went shopping he wanted to make sure I had new clothes for work. Believe or not I still have the clothes he brought for me.

I’m being descriptive on how my husband took care of me financially. Hoping this gives you an idea of  what my life was like before I became a widow. 

Widow Life. 

When Age passed. I had no clue about our finances. I didn’t even know the passwords to our internet banking or our account numbers. 

It was a world I wasn’t custom too. But luckily enough Age had a password safe that had all the information I needed to know. 

At that point, I was learning to make decisions what I needed to do financially again. The world doesn’t stop spinning when your heart is ripped out of you. Bills needed to be paid and the list goes on. 

What I realised the life I had with Age is never coming back. It was back to me being on my own and learning to deal with finances again. 

It was tough because widow life isn’t by choice it’s by force. A widow life is unplanned. I never thought that I was going to be a widow at age 32?!

Your finances change and your lifestyle changes. You cannot control it, you are thrown in the deep end trying to swim back to the shallow end. 

Money doesn’t make you happy. 

The moral of this message is - That I had to accept that my life was about to change and that I needed to take care of myself. Age is no longer here to do that for me. 
My husband who was my provider is no longer here. 
This was when things started to become a reality. I needed to learn fast. 

Just beware of people around you that will take advantage when you are grieving. When you are suffering a loss you will start giving things out without realising that you are. You start being overly generous giving money to other around you. Sadly to say people did took advantage of me. I wouldn’t be surprise if other widows are experiencing the same. 

If you are in this situation always know that you are capable to say no and you can do this. 
Don’t be afraid - God is your provider today, tomorrow and always. 
Be alert to any leeches out there. 

God Bless and Much Love MISS.AGE❤️

Exodus 14:13


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  1. D'PoetDecember 3, 2019 at 11:35 PM

    Jehovah Jirreh Is God Who Provides In Every Season!! He Carries Our Hurts, Our Pain, Our Grief, Our Loss, Our Brokenness!! Let Go & Let God!!

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    1. MISS.AGE❤️ Lakena TaualiiDecember 4, 2019 at 7:43 AM

      I agree. God created this world and he created us he can do all things.

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