MISS.AGE❤️

Warrior.  What does it really mean to have the heart of a warrior?  That is a challenge for me. I like the idea of being a fighter and going to battle, but often the images in my mind are different than truly being a warrior for God. If I am fighting self-defined battles, my tendency is to be selfish. I fight for what I want instead of making sure I am fighting for what God wants. Being a warrior for God really involves fighting for something that is much greater than myself. Fighting for Him means I fight the battles that truly matter and in that fight, I follow Jesus’s example. That can also be tough because Jesus led like a servant and ultimately laid down His life for me. So if I am to fight like Jesus, I have to be willing to do the same as He did. The good word is that I don’t have to do it in my own power and my own strength. Jesus is right there fighting by my side and I have His power and His strength. Each day as I fight for something great for myself...

Fragile Heart I love this song. This song helped me through my first year as a widow. Enjoy it, I promise you, you will find a connection to the lyrics of this song. Love Y’all Miss.Age❤️

Be Still. Psalm 46 speaks of a time of turbulence and upheaval, of fear and uncertainty. The psalm begins, “God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble. Therefore we will not fear though the earth gives way, though the mountains be moved into the heart of the sea, though its waters roar and foam, and the mountains tremble at its swelling.” Perhaps this is a time of personal calamity the loss of a spouse, betrayal by a spouse, the death of a loved one, or a diagnosis of cancer. At all of those times, hear the voice of God saying, “Be still, and know that I am God.” This is not a time for activity and noise. This is a time for stillness and silence. This is the time to be quiet enough to hear the still, small voice. At these times, be still and hear the voice of God. Know that I am God. Know that I am the Almighty. Know that I am the infinite and eternal. Know that I am God and I rule the universe. Know that I am the sovereign God and nothing touches you that does...

Burdens “Cast thy burden upon the Lord, and he shall sustain thee: he shall never suffer the righteous to be moved.” Psalms‬ ‭55:22‬ ‭ Cast your burden onto God daily. Don’t hold on to the weight and guilt of the past. Don’t be entangled by the stain of the past. Cast every burden, every weight, every worry to God and He will sustain you. Your burdens are not God. God is bigger than your problem. When you “cast” something over to God, you’re hurling it over to Him with such force that you’re putting distance between you and the object. When you give the ball over to your teammate you’re entrusting that they will “handle” the ball appropriately. Choose to trust God. He will handle your problems, if you trust Him. When you begin to carry your burdens on your own, they will begin to oppress you and weigh you down. A worry is a magnified concern. When you meditate upon your cares and concerns they begin to mature into worries. When you worship your concerns, instead of casting t...

Grief. There is a familiar feeling that many who are going through grief (or loss) may feel...yet many do not have the ability to label it. It is a feeling that envelopes a grieving heart, but is so subtle that many do not even realize how it is planting itself deeply down into the roots of their soul. Doubt. When I went through a tough grief experience, I couldn't figure out why I was able to still have a strong hunger for God, His Will, and His ways...yet I couldn't fully enjoy God or His Word.  I felt distracted every time I prayed or read my Bible. As I prayed to God, seeking to conquer the distracting and stagnant apathy I felt, He revealed to me that my root problem wasn't distraction...and it wasn't apathy. It wasn't a lack of focus...or the inability to sit still either.  My root problem was doubt. I didn't doubt God's goodness. I knew in my heart that He IS good. Even though I have been through a lot of loss, He has ...

Don’t Quit, Imagine if there was a way to look back at past mistakes or what if I did things differently and see just how close you were to succeeding. Every time you stopped running when the finish line was just around the corner.  Every time you stopped pushing on when you were just about to break through. Unfortunately, many times we give up just when we should have persevered a little big longer. I believe that the problem in life is rarely ever failure. Instead, it is the decision to quit right when you are on the edge of a breakthrough that kills what could have been. It isn’t a lack of skill. It isn’t a lack of talent. It isn’t bad luck. It’s a lack of willpower. But how do we remain positive and focused when chaos is all around us?  It’s easy to keep at something when you see the light at the end of the tunnel. Forcing yourself to push through without seeing the fruits of your labor is much more difficult. Your will to succeed has to outweigh the...

One year into widowhood. First year of being a widow was hell!  When Age passed away I continued to stay with Age’s family. I didn’t want to leave Melbourne yet. I was trying to figure out what the hell was happening with my life.  So I pretended like everything was normal, I continue to carry on with life as if Age was alive; I went to work, pay bills, attended church and the list goes on.  But I started to noticed that things weren’t the same. The more I noticed the more I became depressed. My Home environment changed - there are certain things happened at my Melbourne home around me and towards me that we’re pretty bad. If my husband was alive things would have been handle differently or it wouldn’t happen at all.  My Health - I was gaining huge amount of weight, I was diagnosed with type 2 Diabetes, there were days I could walk because of my back. I did all this not realising I was hurting myself.  My Finances - I was down on o...

Hey Blessings, Life is unpredictable. Life is like a rollercoaster. Life is too short. Life is a gift.  I never thought I would be a young widow.  I never thought I’ll could make it this far without my husband.  I never thought I would be writing and sharing my life to the world. Be Real, Be You, Be Authentic.  MISS.AGE❤️

Darkness As a kid, I occasionally got scared of the dark. I don’t believe it was darkness itself, but rather, the feeling of the unknown. I would fear that something would get me or was watching me. I was the kid that had a plan for everything so if someone was going to get me, I just needed to know so I could prepare. But darkness doesn’t always tell. Often times it is in the dark that most people feel afraid, but in the case of depression, darkness becomes something of normality. The feeling of being alone, yet vulnerable, is too familiar. Fear can come and cripple your mind, but this darkness and sadness you feel is not in control- you are. God speaks many times about the power of light especially in combat with the dark.  We have the ability to shine light in darkness without any physical form of illumination. Simply by the power of our salvation, we conquer darkness. Light is a representation of life itself. Letting your light go out is the beginning of a slippery ...

Pray for Samoa. MISS.AGE❤️

Strength.  It is often said that life consists of a series of highs and lows, times of enjoyment and promise mixed with seasons of challenge and doubt. Life is not just a steady climb to the top; rather it is a journey that consists of hills and valleys. Everyone, believers and non-believers alike, goes through life's ups and downs. But as believers in Christ , we have an incredible promise from God that we never have to face the valleys in life alone. Here are His encouraging words to us: “Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid or terrified because of them, for the Lord your God goes with you; he will never leave you nor forsake you.” Deuteronomy 31:6 The truth is that we need God's presence in both seasons of challenge and seasons of success. By knowing God is with us, we can face each challenge in life as a stepping-stone toward success rather than a decline toward despair. No mountain is too high nor valley too low where God cannot meet us. No matter our circu...

HOME. My home was always with my Age. It didn’t matter where Age and I were as long as I was with Age I felt safe and at home. When I became a widow, my home never felt like home again. My home became a stranger to me. I stayed with my husband’s family in Melbourne the first year when Age died.   It was extremely hard for me to be around his family when he wasn’t around. Age’s family tried their best but I couldn’t grieve properly, having his family around me all the time.  Everything appeared to be the same, BUT I was suffocating, scared, mad, frustrated that Age wasn’t around. I couldn’t accept it. Getting the constant reminder that Age wasn’t around when I was with his family, didn’t help me. It was a constant nightmare and I was getting to the point I was going mad. I didn’t feel like I was grieving the way I wanted too because I was mindful of Ages family grieving too. It also felt like it was a competition who love Age the most and who was hurting more. ...

My Provider. When Age was alive, my life was so easy. I didn’t realised the amount of responsibilities my husband had over me and to his family.  Age took care of all our finances, he knew what was coming in and what was going out.  Age the man that he is, took control of everything. All Age wanted in return was my support in every decision he makes, respect, trust and to love him no matter what.  When I think back of what he did for me, I know that I was the luckiest woman alive.  It was certainly a blissful and stressless marriage  life even though Age took care of his family too.  In my marriage life I never went without. I’ve always had money in my account to spend everyday and also savings on the side. My Age made sure that I was comfortable and happy at times.  Age would go the extra mile, to make sure my clothes weren’t too old or my shoes aren’t worn out. I’m laughing about it now just thinking back of what Age did for ...

A Life of A Widow. Outside, the cold, harsh rain. Inside she feels unfathomable pain. Her love has left her but two years ago, She hopes he isn’t burning down down below. She sits by the window in his favorite chair. Nothing on her mind but death and despair. She watches all day, couples passing by. Waiting for the day that she will die. She longs for the day to join him again. No desire to seek other men. They shared a love so very pure. How much pain must she endure? The loss of her husband was too much to bear. For hear own health she did not care. She rushed the blade through her own heart, Far too long they've been kept apart. MISS.AGE❤️

Grief takes Time. He heals the brokenhearted... Psalms 147:3 Ever dropped a mentos into a bottle of Diet Coke? Grief can do that to our emotions. One day you're fine, then suddenly you're walking around exploding inside. More than anything, you want to let go of your emotions, but you feel like you need to keep them tightly contained. And you can only do that for so long. Let it build up too much and you'll detonate. The world around you will get very messy. If it happens at the wrong time it can badly affect others around us. The lesson is clear. After a serious loss, you need to allow yourself time and space to grieve. Grief isn't self-indulgent, it's a necessary part of being human. Jesus wept with the family of a dead friend to share His feelings with them - and because He genuinely hurt, too. Let people share your loss with you by opening up when you need to. A way that might help is extending your family by confiding in friends and people who you know...

Marriage and Relationships My sisters out there; How many of you beautiful ladies are leading your marriage and family right now? Who wears the pants in your marriage? My confidence and self worth was ruined by my past relationships due to my past experiences led me to think that men are all the same. I wasn’t going to let no man tell me what to do or let any in-laws (family) tell me what to do Lol. When I met my husband Adrian he took a lot of my past hurts and pain. I can remember when we first met and how Adrian approached me lol My first reaction/answer was a no lol.I treated him like he was nothing simply because I was hurt from my previous relationship. I was reflecting on my own marriage and boy I was a strong woman lol. Adrian’s LOVE broke all my walls down. I can admit to y’all, I WASNT the leader in my marriage I was the neck lol. Ladies being the neck in a marriage isn’t degrading. Without the neck there will be no Head lol. There’s a saying “Behind a good man ...